redbear

this is redbear.
what is funny, at least for me, is as i get really close to the end, it starts to feel easy. like this crazy zen process. it sounds like cheese, but it's like the puppets already know who they are, and they just tell me where to put things. but this is far far into the process. which sort of makes me wonder what would happen if i/we pushed it beyond 30. i mean, i'm not gonna. not this time, anyways. but i wonder how dr wade feels? because i remember this feeling from songaday. the question is, does it come about just because the end is in sight? or do you hit a natural rhythm? in all likelihood, it is some combination thereof. it reminds me of the end of a run (that's right - i run! shut up about it!). where i push way harder than ever and it seems easy only in the end...at the least, i got to see the redsox kick ass tonight. in real life at the game! wicked awesome. amazing seats. yeeeoooo...

one more to go.

this has been great.

big big big love,
lovemarty